in 2020 amidst pandemic alot things happened around me, all of it making me feel in loss of control and falling deeper and deeper in my thoughts, i became closet off even more shy than i already was and i was deeply confused over who i was, my identity it is. living surrounded by death and tragedy spiralling aimlessly, hopping from narcotic to narcotic just because i was so fucking done with life as a whole, i couldn't find beauty in anything, i was lonely, heart broken, confused, angry, sad and yet i had this longing for love, but so far all my relationships had failed horribly, my relationships at time wore diminishing for my mental, at times abusice and manipulative, i cut off ties when i needed but i was so lonely and in need of something, something to make me feel like a human, this fear and torment grew into a fear of love itself, a fear to let anyone in, a fear in which i duelled deeply, 2021 struck and i met a deeply tormented soul, who i tried to stay close to and befriend, but it quickly grew abusive, i cut him off, seized contact, and yet, this person found ways to still find me and attempt to manipulate me. inwas only 16 at the time, i felt like all thus failure was my fault, i felt broken and alone.

so in all this drowning, i started recording memos, little lullabies when i was in bed, just some vocals, those became spirit garden, but in the side i kept making angry depressed sample based music, these ambient pieces. at this time i would smoke alot of weed and write poetry, and in like 3 am i would go on fl studio and produce these audio experiments to accompany my thoughts and poetry, most of that poetry is lost, its fine they wore pretty bad, but what stayed is my audio fuckery. this is highly old material that im proud of but i kept in the vaults because i thought it was too close to home, hard to listen to and inaccessible, its 2023, going into 2024, i think its time for this to exist in the public, i know its relatively long and rough at times, this is more of a me thing than anything, i just kinda want to show it to you.

this is album is the more electronic and sample heavy part of all those experiments, ill be posting the avant folk side here next week, another thing ill put here is the sacred coves mix series, those are really good for smoking weed to and drifiting off, but thats out of the point, what i was trying to say is that, this album is kind of my baby, i think it is the most mind bending thing i've made, it is weird and shy and messy and strange but to me it sounds so new, i love it and i want you to check it out i guess.

dont get me wrong i will keep making my pop stuff but in the side i always like to experiment, this is the reason why Archives Vol I & II exist, im just really productive and weird. the ambient and experimental stuff will always be coming out as GiGYS, ill be putting out that stuff on here, im not sure about spotify yet but thats just a maybe to me, sorry for the hour long avant-garde detour :)