collab with Owl Licks from 2021

they told me I'm not myself
said I need something else
something outside my head to control me
I don't think this is the answer but I'm getting scared
cause I'm close to the edge so just hold me down

safe in the arms of defeat, I concede
guess I'm weak, but I need this (I don't wanna let you all down)
think about everyone else
all the hardship and help that you've needed (I swear I'm trying now)

stumbling into an embrace
how did I get to this place
just lift me up and away

I wish I was like I was before
but I can't take anymore
before I take down what's yours

slowly feel I'm losing myself
wish I could turn somewhere else
I don't want anymore help

it's always something I can reverse
I just don't wanna keep hurting I'm sorry

please don't walk away from me
I played for keeps, and I lost
I can't take how patiently
she waits for me, when I'm gone