a crossed travel through the desolate constraints of purely loving other beings conditionally, rationally and pragmatically: the turning towards non-animalistic substance, fleeting promises of eternity, struggling physicality, self-destruction, writing suicide notes to stay alive, the reflected lights of the darkness, born from being looked at attentively and with perseverance. a toast to loving the devil while following the god. filed under: drug combination charts, divine theater scorches, adrenaline rushes, drawing lines on a variety of surfaces, heart failure, map evanescences, panic attacks, wasteland recycling, driving cars for the sake of driving cars, watching and listening to cars, thinking about cars.