I leave these notes to wither away into this abyss. There is injustice done to myself by forever holding silence, yet wanting quiet. Aversion towards thoughts I think about and the feelings I feel. I wear the mask of my fears. I copy and follow their shadows because it's easier to become something I fear than to know what will happen in the future if I lets go of everything. All the mistakes I've made, the people I've hurt, all the moments I've wanted to hold onto as long as I can. The trees and flowers that sulk in my chest wish to sprout and find sunlight, comfort in a life that is capable of pursuing kindness, compassion, and love. Giving just as much as receiving. Desire in peace and self-control, reflection in loss and forgiveness. The resistance against these false vignettes drags my stone fingers along the lines of what I wish to fix, what I don't want to happen, and what could possibly be true. If I ever hurt you, I'm sorry. No matter who you are, I will always appreciate and care for you whether you're close or far, whether I know you or don't know you. Life deserves to be treated with love and I hope anyone can find home where it isn't easily seen anymore.

To whoever finds this or decides to listen, I hope this music can provide a sense of care, hope, comfort, and reassurance in a time of feeling lost.

These songs were made between 2021-2024.

-HL